I don't always post mushy blog post.
But when I do,
I make sure I accompany it with a super epic sweet love song.
CC: Neko-chan :D
Thursday, June 28, 2012
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!
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| CHALLENGE ACCEPTED! |
Recently, my life took a drastic turn...
It was the start of college life
aka 'the free part of life'
So obviously there is a lot of new things that came by; challenges, memories, experiences, were among those things.
And my attitude and habits changed a little.
One thing that is prominent in the change of habit is this:
CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!!!
Yup, I had a weird habit of accepting challenges now.
Its weird since I'm afraid of challenges or dares from my friends in school.
But now, I'm accepting challenges more and more, whether how small or big it is.
Eat a Nuttella Cheese Tuna Sandwich?
CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!
Try to talk to the cute girl at the back of the class?
CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!
Sing a song way out of your range, solo in a jam session
CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!
Write the 800 words essay 1 hour before class?
CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!
Don't eat rice for a week
CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!
CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!
CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!
Go to an All-Boys School to do IB?
CHALLENGE ACCE--
CHALLENGE DENIED!
(I need girls...honestly...best catalyst since 1670)
With this weird habit of mine, I came to love life.
Everyday is interesting
There is always something to talk about.
No more those awkward silence during lunch hour or during those meet ups.
More topics that you can explore
And maybe...just maybe...
I won't be the Socially Awkward Penguin anymore :D
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| Penguin no more |
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Of Dreams and Reality
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| IB! IB! IB! |
Guess what?
Today is the registration day for my friends in KMB aka Kolej Mara Banting. What is so special about KMB? Well, it is one the places in Malaysia (1 of the 11) that offers International Baccalaureate Diploma.
One of the places I wish I could go to...
I had always dreamed of going to KMB one day to do my IB.
IB was my favourite choice of program during my SPM days
Heck even after the results was announced, I was so passionate about IB that I begin to hang out in the IB forum.
I would do anything to do IB
They say IB is the hardest Pre-U program in the world but I don't give a F, CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!
Yet...
Dreams will always be dreams...
When I received the letter saying I got the Bank Negara Scholarship, I jumped in joy. Financial problems will be the thing of the past (IB cost around RM20k above)
Then, I received my college placing: Taylor's University Lakeside Campus, ADP
My heart sank...
My dreams of doing IB crushed into pieces...
I was happy yet, frustrated that I can't grab hold of my dream that I had worked so hard for.
So close, yet so far :(
But...
I think to myself.
Hey, maybe Allah trying to say something here.
Maybe I'm not suited for IB
Maybe I can do more in ADP
Maybe there is something more in ADP
Maybe...
Just maybe...
So, I accept my fate and faced my reality of not going to IB
AND...
It was the best decision I had made
Why did I say this?
In Taylor's, I'm considered the minority group. There was lack of Malay students, a far cry from the abundance of Malay students in SBP schools.
In Taylor's, my belief system was challenge. There are more people with different mindset than me.
In Taylor's, I met more people as it is bigger than KMB.
In Taylor's, I learned survival skills, as I'm living alone in an apartment and need to navigate myself in the city.
In Taylor's, I found my true passion
See, sometimes, your dreams are not meant to be.
Not because you don't deserve it.
It is because God has more in store for you in other places.
Think about it
How many times that you didn't achieve your dreams
And ended up being far better than if you do?
So, don't be too depressed if you don't achieve your dreams
There is something better waiting for you.
And so I pray
May my new dream to get into Stanford is the right dream to fight for
I will do my very best to get it.
If I don't after all those effort,
Then I will smile, knowing there is something more.
PS: Good luck to all the IB students from KMB and also MCKK
PSS: I got really attracted to Stanford's culture and policy. Fits me more than UPenn imo
ReGenesis Chapter 12
ReGenesis Chapter 12 is out!
Read and review my brothers and sisters!
:))))))))))))))
Friday, June 22, 2012
Face Your True Self
You know,
The initial plan was to write about INTELLECTUAL CURIOSITY
which is a very interesting topic to blog about.
BUT
The last session with an amazing psychologist forced me to blog about this.
What are your values and motives?
Boom!
That question really hit me hard.
I'm a person who is very adaptive.
I change personalities according to the situation.
So,
When a question entitles me to answer about my values and most importantly, MOTIVES, I got kinda stuck.
Then, all the structure of my ego broke away and a weird question pop into my mind.
Who am I?
So, it is time again.
To dive in deep into my soul.
And face myself.
Although it is a very hard thing to do.
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| Persona 4 has a strong message on facing your true self. Play it/ Watch it! |
PS: I don't really make sense now. I just got literally mind raped and feels lost. So, soul searching for tonight. Wish me luck.
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
I shall STAND
Bleak. That is what I see
Not being the man I want to be
Barren and beaten
Thrown down into the pits of despair
Blue and wide, the skies are
Waiting for me.
Yet, I'm here
Laying down, facing the blue ceiling
But, my soul shall not waver
My hands shall break through
The blue ceiling above me
Into the utopia, called Future
Throw me again!
Beat me up again!
Spit at me!
Curse me!
Yet, my soul shall not waver!
As I had made my stand
To preserve on
Even if the world crumbles
I will climb out from its rubble
And continue standing
PS: Dedicated to all my friends who feel like giving up. Preserve on. And fight!
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
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